Fine Line

There is a fine line between pleasure and trauma. Many of us use pleasure to hide our trauma, while others traumatize pleasure. It’s a very difficult boundary to delineate.  The politics defining the trauma and the pleasure are very mixed – some suggesting one over the other. Then there is the challenge of dichotomizing both sensations.

Was I a victim of alcohol and drugs abuse or did I use it recreationally?  These are the questions I must ask myself – where am I?

Regardless of that answer, one thing is clear – I am going to succeed. I have been reading, “For Colored Boys,” and although most of them are depressing stories, I have been able to take one message from them – hope.  I am not, and have not been alone. I may feel like I am in this struggle alone, but there continues to be so many more out there. I wish we could all connect and come together and share. But that is impossible, so instead I stay in and focus. Focus on rebuilding.