[bleh, nothing really...something i wrote in one minute]
Long was the craving I had to see an asserted family into a society where one was the leader and the rest followed. Today was simply the fulfillment to that perspective. As I sat in the table, for once, we ate as a family. Instead of being hermits and escaping what is to be considered the norms, we strictly abided by those terms. I was forbidden from a complete shock, but confusion did encumber my train of thought. I was merely happy, as opposed to being contemplated. It just made me realize absolutely everything that I have gone through this year, and everything that I should excessively be grateful for.
I have had so many flaws this past year. It truly did prove, and allowed those particular friends to shine amongst the others. I have been hidden, shattered, and now recovering. This past year, I have met so many people and I have done so much that if I were to write a list, it would totally comprehend why I am the way I am.
But what exactly is this for? I guess, I am just trying to outdo myself and who I truly am. I want to really know who I am, and what I really need in life. What is exactly right, and what is not. Sometimes, it may seem as if what I do contradicts my beliefs, but I know that what I do there's a solid reason behind it.
It is such a disappointment to assert that at times, well actually a great amount of time, I am truly living in lies, deception, and bullshit. It is hard to find something as real as the love that I have for people. Sometimes I blame myself for being so vulnerable because it is truly not my fault.
Ugh!
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