Is there something I lack, something not apparent? Man, writing this really feels impudent and peevish. It thought id be done with such lackluster scenario. The life adjacent to mine, that of yesterday's, I wish it where here, today.
I have no idea what has become of the smiley person that was once not too long ago. Now I walk with a façade, with death spirits, with a loveless life. The love is near, I feel it, but I don't embrace it, I don't abide by it.
It's such a peculiar feeling, a rare species, a rare instinct. I feel like there is a time for change, but I fear its consequences. It's not a change I seek for, but a change that seeks me. A cold change, a less moldy change, a change to make me stronger, but to weaken others.
Some know, others don't. Some seek it, others don't. Some care, others don't. Its just a strange feeling, you know?
Should I embrace it, or ignore it? It's hard. I wish the one of yesterday was here, he'd know what to do.
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